I'm out!

I finished moving my stuff out yesterday. Happy, sad moment. I had a rough day & today is kinda gloomy. I know I will be ok in the end, but it still hurts to know that I was lied to & cheated on. The worst thing is wondering why. Why did he have to do this to me? He could have chosen so dumb slut to do it to, but he chose me. Took away my freedom & then told me I was not independent. I'm sorry thats fucked up. I cried Saturday after selling the washer for the first time in like week or more. Then last night/yesterday was very emotional. I just can't understand how a person can treat another person like that. Even on my worst mean, hating day I could never lie to someone & give them hope. I just don't get it. Oh welll you live you learn.

On a happy note I'm going to Boise this weekend to party a little. I'm excited! I really want to just forget about things & be single & have fun! I'm a little nervous about what will happen, but I'm determined to have fun. Dance my cares away!

I went on a date last week & it was totally not worth my time. The guy didn't even open any doors for me! How lame is that? I told him I had other plans for after the date & he kept trying to get me to go over to his place & watch a movie. I also had plans for Saturday night & he could not understand that either! Seriously I'm not looking for someone to take over my life! Been there, done that. I'm looking for someone to have fun with. Someone I can hang out with.

I don't really thing here is anything else going on. I have 3 exams this week. One today & 2 tomorrow & I'm not ganna do very well on any of them. My head is not in the right spot. Thanks dick! I just hope that I can get some of the money out of him. Why was I so stupid! I saw this coming & still let it happen!

I'm moving out!

I have decided to move out earlier than expected. I was trying to wait until the end of December so I could move into my new apartment without having to move 2 times within a month. Now I get to move twice in 2 months! Yay me! By the end of this year I will have moved 3 times, doubling how many times I have moved in my whole life! These past few weeks have been really great compared to the emotional roller coaster Gary had me on for the past 3 months. I have found that I have family & friends that I can count on & I wish I would have listened to them a year & a half ago when they tried to warn me! Or even in the Spring when people told me to think again about moving in with Gary. Oh well the past is the past I now I can make better decisions for myself. I just wish I would not have put the washer in my name or opened a cell phone for him cuz now I'm stuck with the bills! I'm in the process of selling the washer, which so far has not gotten any hits. If it does not sell by Wednesday Sears will take it back, but I still have to pay like $250 for a washer I will not longer have! I'm trying to get a family friend to store it for me & if that goes through than I may keep it. I do like the washer, but I let myself get talked into it. I'm going to work on not letting people walk over me. I want to stand up for myself & get what I want. It's my life! Well anyways I ganna try to get some sleep. This time change has helped me get a little more sleep than usual except last night!

On Sunday I gave Scribbles away. I'm sad & I miss her but I'm glad I did it. She needs someone who can give her more attention than I can right now. She did really good on the car ride to Boise. I thought she would be whinny & freaking out, but she just watched out the windows. I think she enjoyed it! I don't think I have anything else....Nope I don't