Missing him...

I've watched Kindle a few times since Daniel left. It's very nice to get to spend time with her, but it makes me very sad. I still have lots of emotion & anger. I just don't know what to do with myself. Ugh I don't want to do anything. I don't even want to be doing this blog, but I think it will help me. I'm supposed to play volleyball, but I don't want to. I don't know anyone on my team & I don't want to deal with it. At the same time I want things to change. I want everything to be different. I don't want to be reminded of Daniel everyday & when I'm doing random things. I also love when I get a random memory of him. He was a big part of my life. Even bigger than I thought. I want to see him again. I love him. My head is hurting right now cuz I'm trying not to cry. I've cried so much. I just want him back. I want to hug him, tell him I love him. Well that's all I have the patients for.