Worst Experience Ever & some other stuff

Alex, Stephen, Jon, and I went bowling on Friday night. Alex was running and then throwing the ball. I should have told her to slow down or warn her about how slick it is after the bold line, but I didn't. She was having fun. Then she fell onto the waxed area. She got up & walked back to her chair. I noticed she was setting oddly and I quickly went to her side. She was stiff. I pulled her onto my lap. She was stiff and shaking. Telling me in gasps that she couldn't breath. It took all of my will power to keep from crying, but I held strong. I told her it would be ok, she just needed to relax. I then made her breath with me. Together we sat their just breathing. Me doing it with ease and her stuggling. If she had not walked to her chair on her own I would have thought she was paralized. She was not moving just stiff & looked so scared. I will never forget that. She was so white too. She never cried though. She even finished her frame. I love Alex so much. It breaks my heart that I will be moving away from her again.

I went to the Dr. a few weeks ago. I have a sore that I brought to her attention. She had no idea what it was. It has been there since my cervix was frozen, which she thought was very unusual. I was put on antibiotics, which I finished a few days ago, but the sore is still there. I am very nervous. I would love to have my girl parts taken out so I don't have to worry about abnormal paps or other uncomfortable issues like the sore. It makes me angry and scared to think that I may not be able to have my own Alex. At the same time it is sort of a relief. I have never been like other girls and wanting kids and a husband. I still don't want the kids, but I want the husband. Stephen & I have set a date. It's 3 years away and his mom and aunts are not too impressed. But oh well its my life & I do what I want! Our families are the same but different. Like his mother pushing marriage, and my dad telling Stephen to never get married. I think its funny. I love him so much! It just grows everyday too. I feel like I can't get enough of him. I miss him while I'm at work or anytime I'm away from him. I'm not waiting for it to get better, I'm waiting to see what tomorrow with him is ganna bring. He is definately the man for me. We get alone with ease and don't fight hardly at all. Only over his smoking. We like to go to stores and just roam around and dream. It is so much fun! I really love it! I am excited for Boise too. I just wish I could get a job there and know for sure that we got the appartment. I'm anxious. Oh well everything comes out in the end! Well that's all I have!

Boise....

Stephen & I are planning on moving to Boise sometime really soon! I am excited & really nervous. I feel like I just got home & don't really want to move, but I'm going no where fast! Stephen found a college there that has the program he needs to take over his dad's shop. All we are waiting on are jobs, housing, & him to be accepted. I think finding a job there will be tons easier than it has been here. I just hope things work out! The apartments we have seen online are very reasonable, which makes me very happy! I am also really excited to live alone with Stephen. Just me & him. Jon came home this weekend, well for one day! It just threw us off. We are not used to him being here. It was nice, just different. I am also excited to have more socializing potential. Here I feel like I don't have anyone I can just call & say hey I'm bored lets do something! Mar is here which is great, but she has a family. I still have some play left in me & I want to use it before its gone! LOL I'm also sick of working all night! I have 3 night shifts this week. It just sucks! I am there now & we only have 9 rooms out so I have almost nothing to do except dink around on the internet & apply for jobs/look for apartments. I really hope things work out. I'm sure they will. I really like that Stephen doesn't want to just sit around. He hasn't had a job since August & I can tell that bugs him. He has been getting lots of wood lately. I think its to keep himself busy. Boise will be a fun adventure for us. Plus it is closer than Moscow!!

Scribbles liked this fallen tree for some reason. She even laid down when Stephen went to cut it!


Alex, Scribbles, & I where witches for Halloween!!