I really don't like this! I thought planning a wedding was supposed to be the best part about being a girl!?! I hate it. I just want this shit to be over with so I don't have to deal with it anymore. I feel so stressed out. I was getting really into it then we had an issue over the weekend & I don't like it even more than I didn't like it before the issue. I can't even cry about it anymore. I'm done with it. I'm ready to bag the whole reception shit & just get married & not have to deal with decorations or a freaking breakfast/lunch before the reception. AHHHHH!! I would rather be in finals week! Oh man there is so much I want to get out right now, but I know it's not a good idea, which makes it even worse!

I'm engaged!!!

So I got my ring on Saturday. It's getting sized again. I should have it by the 23rd when Stephen gets back from work. I'm not excited for the whole wedding issue. I'm just ready for it to be over. There are so many other things I would rather do. It makes me feel like a failure as a girl, but its just not me. I never was a girl who always thought about their wedding & planned it for years. Oh well. It's not like I have to do something extreme or have tons of people there. We are going to have 2 people each there. Well I just had to get that out!

Gmas house is gone. = (

My back is killing me! It has been "out" since January, but I woke up on Thursday and it was way out! It hurts to sit too long & if I don't wiggle much it really hurts when I do! I just hope it goes away soon! Ed stepped on it last night & it felt a little better today. Last time he did if for me it felt good for a while. Not 100% though. It just soo annoying! We had volleyball tournaments on Saturday. We finally won a game! It was great, but then we lost the next 2. I enjoyed myself. Too bad its over! Bowling is over too. I got most improved bowler. My average went up by 15 pins! So that's really good. That's about all the excitement in my life.

We finally got the middle room cleaned up! I have my sewing machine set up in there & started my quilt. It's fun! I really enjoy it. We have decided to paint the room blue. Light blue on the top and then a rail with the bottom blue stripes. In my mind it looks great! I can not wait for it to be done! I always think about ton's of things to blog about but I can't think of any now. Oh yeah, they tore down grandma's house today. I thought I could handle seeing it gone, but it was hard seeing the pile of crap where the house used to stand. Very sad. I cried all the way home. Then I took Scribbles for a walk/jog and it helped me deal with it.

Wow I suck at blogging! Things are going really well. The job is super boring. I applied for another job in the hospital yesterday, but I'm not to optimistic about getting it. Who knows though! Kindle was born on the 6th at 12:30ish am. She weighted 7lbs 9oz and 19.5" long. She is the cutest baby! I spent the afternoon with them yesterday & will be today too. Kindra is alone & likes to have someone there. I enjoy spending time with them. It's perdy laid back.

Step is in TX for 2 weeks. He has been gone for a week now, so 1 left! When he gets back he will have a week off! I hope we can get some painting and yard work done. I really miss him! I sleep better with him gone though! No one to poke me & wiggle all night long! Scribbles gets annoying, she likes to snuggle into me. It's like she is cold after being shaved! lol! I like her better shaved. She is too cute!

I have been taking care of Walt's animals. It's not hard work. Just a check in the morning before work then I feed them after work. They are cute. One of the goats can jump fences! Its crazy! What else has been going on. I don't like to say I'm on a diet. Cuz I'm not, I'm just changing my eating habits. It's going really well. I feel healthier & have not got sick since like November! I think taking vitamin E & C help a lot too! I thought I had more to say, but I guess I don't. My life is just not very exciting right now I guess. I just work, clean on Wednesdays and the weekends when I'm not at the motel.

A Healthier Me!

The new job is still going really well. I like the people & the job is very basic. It's a place to start! So I have started a diet. I've been feeling the water for the past few weeks. I feel like it is going well. I don't want to hit it hard core at first, I'm easing into. Which is the right way to go about it, or so I have read, for a life long change. Not just a quick fix. I haven't lost any weight yet. I'm just working on getting my eating under control, which is going well! I'm very pleased with myself, but I still have work to do! I'm drinking water when I feel like I need a snack. I avoid buying sweet things that way they are not around when I'm craving them. My next step is buying better foods. While doing that I'm going to start exercising. We have a bike which I plan on doing after work for 20-30 minutes. When it warms up I will start taking Scribbles for walks and going to the track. I'm excited for this! I'm going slow & hopefully making life long changes! I'm scared of the heart problems & diabetes that runs in my family. Being healthier will help me fend off those threats! I don't think I have any other exciting things going on.

Things that Shine!

So I found the perfect ring!! It was so super nice! I'm in love with it & I want to buy it for myself. Maybe I should back up a little. Stephen & I went to Pocky on Wed. While we were waiting for the Verizon guy to get done with another customer we roamed the mall. Ended up in a jewelery store & I got to try on rings!! It was great! I found on that I just had to keep going back to after trying on several others! It was pretty, kind of simple, and just over all amazing! I really really want it & I hope that is the one Stephen picks out. I don't think I can settle for any other one!! Stephen tried on some too so now I know what he wants. I wish we would have been sized, but oh well. It's such an amazing feeling to find that one person that you should be with. I feel like I have a purpose now, and that's to make him happy. Even though I probably cause him more stress with my grouchiness and my having to have things my way and my need to have things done a certain way, but he loves me all the same! He is staying at Pine Creek for a few days & I hate it! I want him to be home all the time! Him being gone for 2 years is going to kill me! I really don't know what to expect except a lot of missing him & loneliness. I did it for 4 years while in college & missing my family so I'm sure I can handle the 2 years. I don't know why I stayed with Gary as long as I did. He never made me feel this way. He always made me angry & just over all unhappy. I would go through that 50 more times if I had to in order to find Stephen. He is just about as great as that ring! lol.

I started my new job on Monday. It was so freaking hot the first day I almost passed out a few time! Bonnie keeps the temp around 80*! I'm not even joking! I've been wearing skirts & it feels a lot better. I perdy much just file papers all day. It's basic, but keeps me busy. The grandparents are moved into their new house. It is a nice house. It's not the old one, but it will be ok. Well I better get back to work. I'm at Super 8 still for weekends.