Confused or Tired, not sure which!

I'm feeling a lot of things right now. I feel like I should have had a different wedding. I keep looking at other peoples wedding pictures & I'm jealous that I didn't have anything like what they have. I loved my reception & wedding, it was me, but sometimes I wish it was more. I really feel like I need to cry. Not sure why. I have been crying a little everyday. For random reasons. Mostly Denise, but other things too. I can't help but think that my life is missing something exciting. I want something great to happen. I want so much right now! I want a new car, my kitchen, a laundry room, a fenced in yard, iPad, Stephen home every night, oh the list could go on for days! Wow I really need to sleep! Maybe I'll finish this later. Gotta get some wood then pass out!