Gmas house is gone. = (

My back is killing me! It has been "out" since January, but I woke up on Thursday and it was way out! It hurts to sit too long & if I don't wiggle much it really hurts when I do! I just hope it goes away soon! Ed stepped on it last night & it felt a little better today. Last time he did if for me it felt good for a while. Not 100% though. It just soo annoying! We had volleyball tournaments on Saturday. We finally won a game! It was great, but then we lost the next 2. I enjoyed myself. Too bad its over! Bowling is over too. I got most improved bowler. My average went up by 15 pins! So that's really good. That's about all the excitement in my life.

We finally got the middle room cleaned up! I have my sewing machine set up in there & started my quilt. It's fun! I really enjoy it. We have decided to paint the room blue. Light blue on the top and then a rail with the bottom blue stripes. In my mind it looks great! I can not wait for it to be done! I always think about ton's of things to blog about but I can't think of any now. Oh yeah, they tore down grandma's house today. I thought I could handle seeing it gone, but it was hard seeing the pile of crap where the house used to stand. Very sad. I cried all the way home. Then I took Scribbles for a walk/jog and it helped me deal with it.

Wow I suck at blogging! Things are going really well. The job is super boring. I applied for another job in the hospital yesterday, but I'm not to optimistic about getting it. Who knows though! Kindle was born on the 6th at 12:30ish am. She weighted 7lbs 9oz and 19.5" long. She is the cutest baby! I spent the afternoon with them yesterday & will be today too. Kindra is alone & likes to have someone there. I enjoy spending time with them. It's perdy laid back.

Step is in TX for 2 weeks. He has been gone for a week now, so 1 left! When he gets back he will have a week off! I hope we can get some painting and yard work done. I really miss him! I sleep better with him gone though! No one to poke me & wiggle all night long! Scribbles gets annoying, she likes to snuggle into me. It's like she is cold after being shaved! lol! I like her better shaved. She is too cute!

I have been taking care of Walt's animals. It's not hard work. Just a check in the morning before work then I feed them after work. They are cute. One of the goats can jump fences! Its crazy! What else has been going on. I don't like to say I'm on a diet. Cuz I'm not, I'm just changing my eating habits. It's going really well. I feel healthier & have not got sick since like November! I think taking vitamin E & C help a lot too! I thought I had more to say, but I guess I don't. My life is just not very exciting right now I guess. I just work, clean on Wednesdays and the weekends when I'm not at the motel.

A Healthier Me!

The new job is still going really well. I like the people & the job is very basic. It's a place to start! So I have started a diet. I've been feeling the water for the past few weeks. I feel like it is going well. I don't want to hit it hard core at first, I'm easing into. Which is the right way to go about it, or so I have read, for a life long change. Not just a quick fix. I haven't lost any weight yet. I'm just working on getting my eating under control, which is going well! I'm very pleased with myself, but I still have work to do! I'm drinking water when I feel like I need a snack. I avoid buying sweet things that way they are not around when I'm craving them. My next step is buying better foods. While doing that I'm going to start exercising. We have a bike which I plan on doing after work for 20-30 minutes. When it warms up I will start taking Scribbles for walks and going to the track. I'm excited for this! I'm going slow & hopefully making life long changes! I'm scared of the heart problems & diabetes that runs in my family. Being healthier will help me fend off those threats! I don't think I have any other exciting things going on.

Things that Shine!

So I found the perfect ring!! It was so super nice! I'm in love with it & I want to buy it for myself. Maybe I should back up a little. Stephen & I went to Pocky on Wed. While we were waiting for the Verizon guy to get done with another customer we roamed the mall. Ended up in a jewelery store & I got to try on rings!! It was great! I found on that I just had to keep going back to after trying on several others! It was pretty, kind of simple, and just over all amazing! I really really want it & I hope that is the one Stephen picks out. I don't think I can settle for any other one!! Stephen tried on some too so now I know what he wants. I wish we would have been sized, but oh well. It's such an amazing feeling to find that one person that you should be with. I feel like I have a purpose now, and that's to make him happy. Even though I probably cause him more stress with my grouchiness and my having to have things my way and my need to have things done a certain way, but he loves me all the same! He is staying at Pine Creek for a few days & I hate it! I want him to be home all the time! Him being gone for 2 years is going to kill me! I really don't know what to expect except a lot of missing him & loneliness. I did it for 4 years while in college & missing my family so I'm sure I can handle the 2 years. I don't know why I stayed with Gary as long as I did. He never made me feel this way. He always made me angry & just over all unhappy. I would go through that 50 more times if I had to in order to find Stephen. He is just about as great as that ring! lol.

I started my new job on Monday. It was so freaking hot the first day I almost passed out a few time! Bonnie keeps the temp around 80*! I'm not even joking! I've been wearing skirts & it feels a lot better. I perdy much just file papers all day. It's basic, but keeps me busy. The grandparents are moved into their new house. It is a nice house. It's not the old one, but it will be ok. Well I better get back to work. I'm at Super 8 still for weekends.

Worst Experience Ever & some other stuff

Alex, Stephen, Jon, and I went bowling on Friday night. Alex was running and then throwing the ball. I should have told her to slow down or warn her about how slick it is after the bold line, but I didn't. She was having fun. Then she fell onto the waxed area. She got up & walked back to her chair. I noticed she was setting oddly and I quickly went to her side. She was stiff. I pulled her onto my lap. She was stiff and shaking. Telling me in gasps that she couldn't breath. It took all of my will power to keep from crying, but I held strong. I told her it would be ok, she just needed to relax. I then made her breath with me. Together we sat their just breathing. Me doing it with ease and her stuggling. If she had not walked to her chair on her own I would have thought she was paralized. She was not moving just stiff & looked so scared. I will never forget that. She was so white too. She never cried though. She even finished her frame. I love Alex so much. It breaks my heart that I will be moving away from her again.

I went to the Dr. a few weeks ago. I have a sore that I brought to her attention. She had no idea what it was. It has been there since my cervix was frozen, which she thought was very unusual. I was put on antibiotics, which I finished a few days ago, but the sore is still there. I am very nervous. I would love to have my girl parts taken out so I don't have to worry about abnormal paps or other uncomfortable issues like the sore. It makes me angry and scared to think that I may not be able to have my own Alex. At the same time it is sort of a relief. I have never been like other girls and wanting kids and a husband. I still don't want the kids, but I want the husband. Stephen & I have set a date. It's 3 years away and his mom and aunts are not too impressed. But oh well its my life & I do what I want! Our families are the same but different. Like his mother pushing marriage, and my dad telling Stephen to never get married. I think its funny. I love him so much! It just grows everyday too. I feel like I can't get enough of him. I miss him while I'm at work or anytime I'm away from him. I'm not waiting for it to get better, I'm waiting to see what tomorrow with him is ganna bring. He is definately the man for me. We get alone with ease and don't fight hardly at all. Only over his smoking. We like to go to stores and just roam around and dream. It is so much fun! I really love it! I am excited for Boise too. I just wish I could get a job there and know for sure that we got the appartment. I'm anxious. Oh well everything comes out in the end! Well that's all I have!

Boise....

Stephen & I are planning on moving to Boise sometime really soon! I am excited & really nervous. I feel like I just got home & don't really want to move, but I'm going no where fast! Stephen found a college there that has the program he needs to take over his dad's shop. All we are waiting on are jobs, housing, & him to be accepted. I think finding a job there will be tons easier than it has been here. I just hope things work out! The apartments we have seen online are very reasonable, which makes me very happy! I am also really excited to live alone with Stephen. Just me & him. Jon came home this weekend, well for one day! It just threw us off. We are not used to him being here. It was nice, just different. I am also excited to have more socializing potential. Here I feel like I don't have anyone I can just call & say hey I'm bored lets do something! Mar is here which is great, but she has a family. I still have some play left in me & I want to use it before its gone! LOL I'm also sick of working all night! I have 3 night shifts this week. It just sucks! I am there now & we only have 9 rooms out so I have almost nothing to do except dink around on the internet & apply for jobs/look for apartments. I really hope things work out. I'm sure they will. I really like that Stephen doesn't want to just sit around. He hasn't had a job since August & I can tell that bugs him. He has been getting lots of wood lately. I think its to keep himself busy. Boise will be a fun adventure for us. Plus it is closer than Moscow!!

Scribbles liked this fallen tree for some reason. She even laid down when Stephen went to cut it!


Alex, Scribbles, & I where witches for Halloween!!

Update!

Wow it has been forever since I blogged on here! I have been using myspace a lot. Not sure why. I guess probably because I am on there more than I am on here. I also like to use this one for more personal stuff. Not as much traffic here. Or so I think! lol I have an interview on Tuesday for a bank teller position in Soda. I'm not to thrilled about driving to Soda 5 days a week & putting those miles on the Focus, but its the job I want & need! Hopefully it works out!

I love Stephen! He is really a great guy! He moved in with me just after my birthday. It's going really fast, but it feels really good! My family gets along really well with him & he is always there to help me & them. We went & helped my dad pack out his moose today. With a second thought he was ready to go. I love that about him. He never thinks twice about helping people. I also love that he puts up with my grouchiness. I kicked him off the couch today while I was napping before I had to work all night. I don't like my sleep being messed with. He was right there when it was time for me to wake up though. Just like nothing had happened! There are so many things about him that I really like. Like his hunting ability. Even though he takes me to the dumbest places to find deer. I swear I have seen more fucking sage brush this year than I have in my whole life! I prefer trees! Needless to say, I didn't shoot anything! Passed up a lot of 2 points, which I'm fine with. I hope we get good jobs soon so we can starting remodeling & buying my house. I also hope Ed gets one too so he can afford to move out. There are tons of things I love about Stephen but I can't think of them. Oh he gets wood for the house & he kills things so we can eat! lol He also trades me cars when I need the truck. I also like that I don't have the "it will get better" feeling. I feel like things are great how they are, & if they get better great, but I'm not waiting for it to get good like I was with Gary. I had the worst dream the other night! Stephen turned into Gary & was gone for days on end & then left me! I think I'm just nervous because Gary broke up with me a month after I moved in, so I'm expecting Stephen to do the same thing. Which I am sure he will not do because he is not that kind of guy. Well I don't think I have anything else to say. Just wanted to do a little update!