Friday, October 24, 2008
It's all done
It would appear that 3 options actually meant I have found another girl. Gary has been seeing a new person this whole week. Been getting home very late, or early. We have not slept together since Saturday & we will never sleep together again. I can hardly sleep at night. Last night I got 5 hours & thought that it was good. I just don't understand how he can go from saying I wont see anyone else while your here to doing another girl, not even a month after saying it! Today has been a fairly good day though. I woke up & decided that it was going to be a good day. & it was up until Gary was home at the same time as me. It was weird. I talk to Jessica today at Winco & she said Gary was dressed weird. He was wearing those huge pants & the blue dragon shirt. He looked like a werido. Oh well, I guess when your trying to be with someone & don't want to get rejected you start making yourself into the person they want you to be. Which is what he did for me, so why not do it for the next girl. Jeff & Heather have been helping me feel better. I go to their house a bunch & stayed the night on Wednesday. I am probably ganna stay there all weekend cuz Andy & family/friends will be in town. I really hate this. I thought it was just something Gary was going through. I thought we would be able to work through it. How can he change for a new girl & not for me? I was talking to a team mate today that said she had the same experience & now she is with a person who is 10 times better. I just want someone to be there for me when I'm having a rough time like with my 407 assignment. That's what made the end of today sad for me. I'm frustrated with my homework so it makes me think about Gary being with a new girl. Me not being enough. Fuck this was such a good day, I was so happy. I am ganna make myself happy. I have friends & family to support me through this! I will be ok, I don't need a man or a boy like Gary in my life. I can take care of myself! Now back to the evil homework. Wish me luck!
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Hey I love your blog! Did you created it yourself or is it a template? Anyways I totally laughed when you started talking about seeing me today! And seriously, I said this on your wall too, but if you ever wanna come over and chill just send me a text! I have a ton of movies and I usually have icream and I actually still have stuff for cosmos. lol Anywho I don't think you add friends on bloggers but I think you can 'watch' blogs. So I am going to try to watch yours too. Oh, interesting story by the way...i was sitting here all happy with my ice cream when there were annoying bangs. I looked out and the sky got bright so I assumed it was fireworks. Then Dustin calls and asks where I am, if I am home. DUH it was 9:30 and I left his place at 8:45! He asked if I heard the bangs and he said he thought it was gunfire! Whew! I hate when he gets worked up about stuff like that because I watched and it was just fireworks. But I was scared for a few minutes! Then it made me think of when there was that shooting by where you used to live and you thought it was just fireworks.
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