First week

I have failed so many quizes this week its not even funny! I hope I can start doing better. I think the teachers do quizes to see where we are at & scare off people. It makes me feel dumb. I think I will have 2 easish classes out of my 6. So I will have to work hard! Speaking of work, work study is so boring. I am there now & I just sit here & give out towels, lockers, & answer questions. The other morning Gary told me he loves me only as a friend. So that is perdy much over. I feel really horibble still, but what am I supposed to do? I have been trying really hard this past month & a half with things only getting worse & stressing me out! My stomach always hurts & I can burst out crying at any moment. Makes classes kinda hard when I have to focus on not crying! On Tuesday right when I walked in the door of my house I burst into tears! It sucks, but I hope I can get past it soon. Gary also told me today that he is ganna ride to St. Marys with a friend. So I get to stay home all alone this weekend & do nothing. Which is what I kind of wanted to do anyways. I just go to St. Marys for him, so I think it would just be weird if I was there. Betty called me tonight about Garys car & the cops, & wants me to go up there this weekend. I don't think she knows about me & Gary or the lack there of. So that would make this weekend even more joyful. I still don't understand how it can just be done, but Mar keeps telling me its for the better. I hope she is right. I think my mind is set on moving to SLC area after college. But who knows that could change. I thinks that's all I have for now.