Its weird...

Gary told me yesterday that it is weird when I tell him that I love him. Why is that weird? I don't understand. It's made today hard. I have almost cried a few times. But I have held strong, who knows how. As much as I want to graduate I really don't. After I graduate I will be gone. I will be away from Gary & who knows if I will ever see him again. That breaks my heart all over again. Today is going to be very hard. Gary is sick again. This time he has a fever & a bad cough. He didn't go to classes. I'm trying to do things to make him feel better, but while I'm doing those things I wonder why. Yesterday Gary also told me that I make myself his bitch. I'm sorry if I want to make you happy. To do things for you. To show you that I care. That I will be there. I'm sorry I was too busy to fold the laundry so I asked you to help me. I'm sorry your not as willing to help me as I am to help you. What if it was me that was sick? Would you go get me medicine? Would you put an extra blanket on me? Got to go to class.